This is way beyond my remote concern

陽明山之犬

昨天用一個早上完成了胃鏡、超音波和斷層掃瞄，非常有效率。回到辦公室我面臨了工作以來最漫長的一個星期二下午。只要一和周遭失去互動，馬上在五秒鐘之內開始搖頭晃腦十分無奈，只好不停喝水跑廁所保持清醒。顯然幾泡尿不比熱水澡，一直到晚上洗完澡才感到一天正要開始，邊找東西吃時手還微微發抖，不知是太餓還是太興奮。

晚上的筆試實在很生疏，考到後來簡直自暴自棄起來，不過口試還算順利，和我預期的相反。出了校門我立刻想到兄弟蚵仔麵線。刻意走一段路去搭捷運，途中想著如果即將有個新朋友來到，或是已經來到，我希望各自相安無事。忐忐忑忑，這是最近常做的假設之一。

Caring is creepy，大抵如這隻狗的眼神，警醒卻茫然。

I think I'll go home and mull this over
Before I cram it down my throat
At long last it's crashed, the colossal mass
Has broken up into bits in my moat.

Lift the mattress off the floor
Walk the cramps off
Go meander in the cold
Hail to your dark skin
Hiding the fact you're dead again
Underneath the power lines seeking shade
Far above our heads are the icy heights that contain all reason

It's a luscious mix of words and tricks
That let us bet when you know we should fold
On rocks I dreamt of where we'd stepped
And the whole mess of roads we're now on.

Hold your glass up, hold it in
Never betray the way you've always known it is.
One day I'll be wondering how
I got so old just wondering how
I never got cold wearing nothing in the snow.

This is way beyond my remote concern
Of being condescending

All these squawking birds won't quit.
Building nothing, laying bricks.

-The Shins, Caring Is Creepy